Today’s topic will be discussing my absence over the past few weeks. Something that I have been avoiding for a while now, but now I have a solid reason to begin writing again. Although I try to avoid writing topics complaining and writing about unimportant things, I believe that what I have to say today is rather important.
Nearly two weeks ago, I moved in with a new family. This family is amazing, being very supportive and helpful every step of the way. I know I am teasing you a bit with this, but I will save the details for another post. The issue that I want to address here is my previous host family. To be frank, I didn’t get along with my old host mother for various reasons. There were just fundamental lifestyle differences that we simply couldn’t agree on. This led to a lack of communication between us, and the rest of the family. The instant relief that I experienced when I moved families is something that I regret having. I will openly admit that I was part of the problem, and I think it would be best for me to leave it at that.
Because of these issues I had with my previous host family, my motivation to do anything productive as lower than ever before. Every time I would attempt to write a post, it would just feel stale and empty. Although to be fair on my part, I did still continue write, just to other outlets than this blog. Moving to my new host family, I was able to slowly rehabilitate myself back to a state where I now feel comfortable with what I am writing.
Another catalyst for my sudden urge to share my daily life again, would be a certain email from a certain someone. I won’t be naming anyone, but they know who they are. Actually, they might not know because they apparently know everything about me without having the need to even read my blog. But I digress. This certain someone wrote me a very harsh email detailing how I need to improve my attitude. One part stood out to me, and that would be when they claimed that me spending time on my blog is degrading my exchange experience. To combat this I promise to resume my habit of posting daily, although I can’t guarantee the quality. Let’s see how you like them apples certain someone.
With the ugly topics out of the way, I feel like I am a horse whose reigns just got let loose. I can write whatever I want, I can do as I please. As I might have mentioned before, I have slowly worked my way up to comfortably writing for my blog again. What I didn’t mention, that nearly everyday I have devoted a good portion of my time to practice my creative writing. I wouldn’t call it my strong point, but I can tell that my flow and style has been improving. The only thing that I can’t shake is that I get the feeling that I am copying someone else. Although what I have been writing (at least as far as I know) has been imagined and designed on my own, I can’t help but feel that I am unintentionally copying another author’s style. I guess time will only be able to tell.
That’s all for today, see you tomorrow!